MONEY.

God I am in need of money.
Please, God.
Thank You.

Tangible.

God, it may be such a trivial thing.
Yet so small that it managed to crawl under the door of my heart.
I’m troubled by te acrylic powder thing.
I want it so badly manzx.
Give it to me pl0x <3

John 14.

John 14:1
¹“Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me.

I was worrying for three people: Maomao, Yan Leng and Winston.
Maomao’s in BB retreat, and I’m so scared that he will injure himself (blisters from badminton), fall sick, too hungry, diarrhoea, leg pain (he injured his thighs while playing basketball). I kept worrying and kept praying for him.
Yan Leng and Winston – I was scared that they don’t communicate, etc.

But God, I trust in You.
I kneel at Your throne.
You are bigger than all.
I pray to You Lord.

John 14:14
¹⁴You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it.

Thank You God, I will ask of You for everything I need and want (of good purposes).
God, I want Yan Leng will take the initiative to talk to Winston.

*Blabbers secret into His ears*

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You are my Freedom
Jesus You are the Reason
I’m kneeling again at Your throne

Where would I be without You
Here in my life
Here in my life

John 11, 12 and 13. 3 in 1.

John 11:8-9
⁸“But Rabbi,” they said, “a short while ago the Jews tried to stone you, and yet you are going back there?”

⁹Jesus answered, “Are there not twelve hours of daylight? A man who walks by day will not stumble, for he sees by this world’s light. 10It is when he walks by night that he stumbles, for he has no light.”

No matter where I am going, there is bound to be a place that “I am not supposed to go” because “people there hates me”. However, since I am in the Light (Jesus), I have nothing to be afraid of because I see by this Light.

However, if I walk by darkness (without Jesus), I will definitely be faced with many unforeseen circumstances that I cannot handle on my own. I cannot see.

So Jesus, I want to walk in Your Light.

John 11:11-12
¹¹After he had said this, he went on to tell them, “Our friend Lazarus has fallen asleep; but I am going there to wake him up.”

¹²His disciples replied, “Lord, if he sleeps, he will get better.” 13Jesus had been speaking of his death, but his disciples thought he meant natural sleep.

Many a times we misunderstand what God is trying to say, when He puts it into sentences that is of another meaning. Too chim or too abstract. Like sleep, He meant death, but the disciples thought He meant natural sleep.

How then, God, do I understand Your Word?
Your disciples were close with You but yet they still misunderstood.
Teach me, God.

Then on verse 15, Jesus said Lazarus was dead
Thank You, God.

John 11:41
“Father, I thank you that you have heard me. 42I knew that you always hear me,
Great faith.

John 12:26
²⁶Whoever serves me must follow me; and where I am, my servant also will be. My Father will honor the one who serves me.

Then I want to follow Jesus, so I can be where You are

John 12:27-28
²⁷“Now my heart is troubled, and what shall I say? ‘Father, save me from this hour’? No, it was for this very reason I came to this hour. ²⁸Father, glorify your name!”

Actually I was very afraid of the end times when the world will perish, because it means that I will have to die early and unable to give birth and unable to experience many things I want to.

I had been asking God to postpone His plan so I can experience what I want.

I realized through His mercy and love, not my will, but God’s will be done.

John 13:34-35
³⁴“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. ³⁵By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.”

This was what I learned yesterday through BB retreat.
God surely knows I have a love-hate issue.
I will love one another through God’s love.
God, show me.

John 10.

God You are my Shepherd.
God do not let me go, please.
God, please bless my family members too.
Use me Lord, use me to help them find their Shepherd.

For You said, “there shall be one flock and one shepherd.”
Use me, God.
Use me.

I want to be Your instrument, Your medium to bring them back to You,
like how the Bible did to me.

John 7.

John 7:18
¹⁸He who speaks on his own does so to gain honor for himself, but he who works for the honor of the one who sent him is a man of truth; there is nothing false about him.

Then God, i want to speak about You.
I want to do work for Your honor.
I want to do things for You.
I don’t want anything to be false about me too.
I pray that I will be faithful.
I want You to tell me that I’m Your good and faithful servant at the end of the race.

Protect me, my family and Wen Yew, God.

John 6.

John 6:29
²⁹Jesus answered, “The work of God is this: to believe in the one he has sent.”
Before that was Jesus feeding thousands with the five loaves and two fish.

What do I have to do?
BELIEVE.

God will provide.
Do not worry.

John 4, John 5.

John 4:13-14
¹³Jesus answered, “Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, ¹⁴but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.”

But God, why am I still thirsty?
Am I not drinking from Your Water?
I want to drink from the spring of water that You mentioned.
I want, I want.

John 5:41
⁴¹“I do not accept praise from men,

O.O but I accept them.

John 3.

John 3:35-36
³⁵The Father loves the Son and has placed everything in his hands. ³⁶Whoever believes in the Son has eternal life, but whoever rejects the Son will not see life, for God’s wrath remains on him.”

I believe in Jesus.
I believe in everlasting life when I entrust my whole unto Him.
I believe all these.

I pray for miracles upon miracles.
I pray that I’ll score 50/50 for my Geography O Levels.
I pray that I will be able to concentrate when I study.
I pray, I pray, I pray.

God, when will You answer my prayers…?

John 2.

John 2:18
¹⁸Then the Jews demanded of him, “What miraculous sign can you show us to prove your authority to do all this?”

I know I am like a Jew everytime, always asking God what miraculous sign He can do to prove His power to me.
Be it in my studies, my weight loss regime, Tekken, DotA etc.
Once He did not perform miracle, when Hunk lost in his Tekken game, and I thought it was all over for me and God.
I thought He wasn’t real anymore, not to me, at least.
However, he brought yet another sign to me that Heihachi was not Hunk’s character.
I was so convinced, I bought the story, so did Hunk.
I believe it was God because I did not even think about any other characters but just one came to my mind.
I believe it was God.

How many times do I need to ask Him what other miraculous signs can He do?
The fact is, He can do anything, but not according to what we want, though we pray, but what is best for us.

But why still pray when He knows what is the best?
It’s because He knows what is the best: pray to Him.

Weeeeeee.